In case it wasn't clear...this person wasn't 'just anyone' that I befriended on Facebook. That is the what makes this so scary. He was a fellow classmate from high school that I THOUGHT I knew. We had mutual friends. We worked together. We hung out at the same hangouts. I have since realized that pretty much every scenario that he described in his last letter did in fact occur (giving him a ride home, getting stuck in my tracker, and the party in high school with the coin toss-though it had a different meaning then.) At the time I made the decision to befriend him on Facebook there was absolutely no reason not to. In fact the original friend request was months before he sent his first private message. I think that the connection through Facebook allowed him to develop these deeper feelings from afar without any interaction with me.
I also thought he could use a second chance at being my friend on Facebook. Since he seemed genuinely remorseful for the posts I had witnessed on his wall. I thought he was a friend who just got upset that things weren't going his way. I thought he needed to feel like he had a friend (even if it was in the most basic sense of the word.) It seems many are taking this at face-value and hanging on the statement that I 'barely knew' him ever which isn't true. The 'barely knew' part refers to who this person is to me 15 years later. Yes, 15 years later, I barely know Travis Tayor, obviously. I don't know. I just can't get past the few people that think I actually brought this on myself. Seriously...if they think that then they aren't listening.
If you think for a minute about this sick fantasy that was going on in his head, you will realize how simply updating my status on Facebook may be interpreted by him as some sort of code that speaks to him directly or what not. Each and every post I made to my Facebook was a potential affirmation to him that we had something. When in reality I was not speaking to him at all. I was just doing what everyone on Facebook does-updating my status to keep my friends and family involved in my life not realizing that it also kept Travis involved in my life. I'm sure many of my status updates encouraged his obsession.
2 comments:
I love you and it hurts me to read that you are still worrying/dwelling/giving thought time to people who still think you had any fault in this situation. Those people, just like Travis Taylor are somewhat askew from the norm but I guess are entitled to their opinion and their right to speak that opinion since this is America. Please believe in your very soul that you are in no way responsible for what Travis Taylor did or how he perceived the connection between the two of you. It was entirely his own imagination that supplied all the fuel for his fire. Again, I can't believe how your guardian angel and the Holy Spirit were watching over you. The timing of this is just too coincidental for it to be anything else. Having the sheriff's office arrive to serve your restraining order the night before Travis intended to come and kill you is beyond coincidence and can only be attributed to God watching over you. There will always be "cooks" coming out in support of sick human beings like Travis. That in no way should reflect on you or the way you live your life. Please know how much you are loved and how much those of us that love you respect how you handled yourself in this situation.
I have to agree with the comment above. I don't know you but, I've been following this story fairly closely.
It's amazing the folks who refuse to see what's going on but, sometimes it's most difficult when you know the person. It happens all the time. There are people that think Casey Anthony is innocent, or that Scott Peterson didn't do anything. Please. Total nutcases, like the people that think Charlie Sheen is normal and clean...LMAO!!!
Don't worry about those people. You have NOTHING to justify to them. They aren't ever going to listen to any reason anyway.
Best of luck to you and your family!
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